my story

1st class at SEGi

2011-09-29T21:20:00.000-07:00

it's about 8.30 when i walked in that classroom
i took a glance
shit! seemed i entered the wrong classroom
as i didnt see any of them in briefing yesterday
then i quickly went back to the main building
swiped my id card to check the location of the class again
the guard there is friendly
he then explained me about how to check the location
6th floor, 6E, wtf, that's the place i went just now
then i returned to the classroom

omg, seemed the seats wasnt left so much...
actually, i m a person who is unwilling to talk
especially with the strangers
unless the situation forces me to talk
here the situation came

'can i sit here?'
rejected by a girl, as she said her friends was going to sit there
then i forced to ask to a girl again
as i didnt c any seats left beside a guy
'can i sit here?'
'ok'
finally i had my seat
she then began to communicate with me
in english
briefed me about last week's studies
lent me her notes to me
friendly n helpful is the 1st image perceived by me
n i saw swee ping there
one of my ex-classmate for one subject
she sat at the inner side
n i have no opportubity to say 'hi' to her

but suddenly the lecturer asked us to change our classroom
as our classroom wasnt enough to fit 30++ students
i was thinking, who should i sit with
then i sat at a table in front
n she approached and asked me
'can i sit?'
i replied with 'ok'
i was actually happy as i can have someone to talk with me
she was concentrated when the class was going on
copied everything said by lecturer
2nd image to me: hardworking girl
we went for lunch after class
with 2 of china students, swee ping n her friends

next class...
she finally showed her real hidden side, lol
she was actually arguing with the china student
bullying him in speaking actually, lol
4th image to me: talkative person

5 subjects this semester
4 r full coursework
but is much more complicated
compared with the coursework i did last time
i will never finish my it in 2 or 3 days time
but 2 or 3 months is needed to finish
i prefer exam!

release of my last result at TARC

2011-09-21T01:32:00.000-07:00

frankly speaking
i was actualy damn nervous
at the time of checking my result
as i afraid my finance may fail
and i began to ask myself y dont study it during the holidays
the clock showed approximately 9am
while watching Johnny English
i try to check my result at TARC website
1 hour passed
2 hours++ passed
at the time i about to give up to check the result
it showed my result slowly
the page was lagging
the 1st thing i looked for is finance
'C', double and triple checked
still 'C', which means i passed it
yes!
1A 2A- 1C
that's my result of last sem
havent finish my Johnny English in 2 hours++
haha, as i didnt focus at all

overall result is actually dragged by 'C' of finance
3.3333 (so many 3 here)
wish it may qualify me to a good university

thank you

2011-07-10T01:43:00.000-07:00

i m not the person who good in this
i dont speak it out
but it doesnt mean i dont appreciate it
for the one who treat me well
i will remember in deep
i would like to say thank you
to all who ever helped me
especially kf & ss
for helping me a lot in these 2++years
lending me your notes
teaching me in studies
jokes that u made
i do feel it
without u all
i dont think i can last until so far here
thank you

thief

2011-06-30T05:33:00.000-07:00

another story story abt him
though he was gone
he went away
with a multi-plug
that not belong to him
he took it
just like that
without the permission of the owner

the owner of the plug
is also the owner of my house
when i bought lunch at his stall this afternoon
he said to me:
你的朋友，拿掉我的插头
打电话给他，他说原来是你的哦？
之后再打给他他都没接
我上次给他睡沙发(for 1 month++)
没收他钱
酱吊的人都有
i reply:
我们这间家的人都知道他很吊的啦

what do u say?

hate

2011-06-12T05:20:00.000-07:00

i rarely hate someone
when i do so
there must be reason x 100

i knw him since form 3 or 4
we arent classmate
when i didnt knw him much
i thought he is quite friendly last time

1 year ago
when i moved in the house i m staying now
my nightmare began

if u want me to describe him with one word,
fucker is best suit for him

he always claim himself is a person who is clean
yet, he is the one who dirties our kitchen
he always put the rubbish in kitchen
he even poured the curry of roti canai straightly into the sink
as a result, it is stucked
and he wanst take any action on it
he even mopped his own floor with my friend's shampoo
without asking the permission of the owner
hair shampoo to mop the floor?
sohai

he is the one who always 'blow water'
for the girl he likes
he told us that she is her gf
though she isnt her gf for a single day

in gaming
he is suck
especially in dota
always wait for last hit and ks only
he plays dota for quite long
last year, he plays 4-5 matches everyday
but, for the heroes he knw to use
i can count it with my fingers

in driving
dont ever get a ride on his car
if u still wish to see the sun tmr
he fetched me for abt 4 times
and there is 2 incidents happened
1st incident
he almost banged the motor rider
as he speed thru the read light
seriously, the rider could die
if the rider was slow for 1 sec
2nd incident
the car was facing the reverse way
luckily it is red traffic light
otherwise, i cant imagine what will happen

money
i cant remember how much of money i have lent it to him
n he is the one who is always not willing to repay u
though he is able to repay u
he always has money to spend on new hp, yamcha, cc, karaoke
yet, he will claim he has no money
for the money i lent it to him
i said this to myself
'i only donate my money to someone who is disable or retarded'

privacy
he is the one who loves to infringe on others' privacy
i rmb i went to bath with my room's door unlocked
when i came back to my room
he is sitting in front of my laptop
using my account to post status, comments or chat
he did this to other housemates too

ego
he asked me how to check the result
at the time he succeeded to login
he covered the screen with his hand
he was actually scared i saw his result
yet, he always tease turtle on turtle's poor result

hypocritical
he often post status that states he is studying
yet, he is actually studying for 5 mins

singing
he loves to sing
loudly
at all the times
it's almost 5am in the morning
im not sleeping yet
as i waked by terrible voice
im wondering
does he have brain to think?
singing in 5am
while everyone is sleeping？

in this sem
i thought he will move out
but
he said the owner of the house
can only let he rent it after 2 weeks
as there is a student still staying at the room
which he is willing to rent
2 weeks passed
another 2 weeks passed
he is still in our living room
shamelessly sleeps on our sofa for 2 months
without paying rent
and i sympathize on the sofa
it is almost broken as his size is too big for it
luckily, he doesnt bother so much for this sem
maybe he senses that i dont like him much
good for me then

as i heard he will be moving out tmr
my nightmare will finally end
everything will be fine tmr

insomnia

2011-05-25T23:50:00.000-07:00

i accidentally saw few articles on tis topic
then i summarized it
patiently take a look on tis
as it may help u to solve ur insomnia problem
click on the picture if u cant view it clearly

没什么

2011-05-17T11:27:00.000-07:00

我只是。。。觉得该对自己的人生负责了

bon vovage

2011-04-10T03:53:00.000-07:00

u should on the plane now
sleeping probably^^
take care, my friend
good bye & bon voyage

entrepreneur assignment

2011-03-16T18:46:00.000-07:00

we r assigned to do a business plan
then our group chose the 'computer/IT' field'
(i m not one of them who chose it, xp)
i really hv no ideas
when it comes to computer/IT' field
coz there's so much competitors out there
what should i write for strength of our shop?

idea of our leader
1--promotion-sell pc with promotion price n different purchase, sold with installed program with latest games & software & songs.
2--latest prisions with 10% discount
3--product taken by thrust & branded company and fully original quality garientyed
4--product diff
we sell pc with installed games and song that tenagers want and demand for, we can change the games and songs even solfware acording to customer want and do not effect the pc performance, woth our copy writed admin solfware

this is what so called strengths of our shop
i can ignore the word n grammar mistakes
but i cant stand with the lousy ideas
would u open a shop with these ideas?
latest games n songs?
how much is it for copyrighted games n songs?
of coz latest software n fully original product
this is what provided by every pc shop
and i really dont knw what the 'admin software' u r talking

then i wrote my own ideas since i dont think his ideas can work
1--buy ur pc online
----2 weeks delivery guarantee unless the stock is unavailable
----or we'll give u rm200 off voucher to your next pc purchases
2--customer service
----2 years warranty to all pc purchases(the pc retailer normally provide for 1 year warranty)
----'come to home' customer service within 5km of our shop
----establish our own website: much easier for customers to get latest info abt our pc, accessories & promo, besides, collect feedback frm customers n try to improve according to their suggestion
3--pricing
----10% off voucher to next pc purchases above rm3000
----5% off voucher to student customers(id card to prove)
----5% off voucher to pc purchases above rm 5000
4--other
----provide pc buying recommendation to customer(according to their needs n preference)
----normally the pc retailer will sell their product according to their customers' buying power, to maximize their profit and ignore the customers' need

yea, i knw my ideas r not good enough
im not the one who chose the IT field, ok?
im totally frustrated for this assignment
though im only responsible for a small part

我们都怕痛

2011-03-09T02:45:00.000-08:00

不知你们有没有发觉
当人长大了
每当须要做决定的时候
你总会思前想后
想想会有什么后果
想想值不值得
想想成功率有多高
听听别人的意见
再变得没有主见
经过一连的思考
你开始却步不前
开始退缩
开始逃避
是因为
我们开始怕了
怕浪费时间
怕丢失金钱
怕被人讥笑
怕再一次经历失败

那个想也不想就从高处跳下去的我们不在了
那个想到什么就说什么的我们不在了
那个想也不想就说‘好呀’的我们不在了
那个充满好奇心的我们不在了
我们知道必须为自己的决定负上责任
我们长大了。。。

it's a hard decision to make

2011-03-05T14:40:00.000-08:00

after 1 year & 10 months
i made my decision
to cut it short

advantages of having short hair
1st-no need to use much shampoo to wash hair
----i can actually save my money, lol
2nd-my hair wont irritate my eyes anymore
-----i hate this most when i had my long hair
3rd-wont sweat easily
-----will feel hot easily when i had the long hair
4th-no need to wait for my hair to dry
-----so, i can throw my hair dryer away^^
5th-the wind have no chance to mess my hair
-----i think my hair wont be messed even the tornado
-----whirled around, lol

so, why dont i cut it short?
i m actually missing my long hair

disadvantages of having short hair
there is only one disadvantage, which is
i need to cut it monthly as it will look mess with my curly hair

hair style of okw^^

2011-03-05T14:29:00.000-08:00

2008-i was still young, lol

july 2009-1st time rebonding

ogos 2009

sept 2009-bowling with classmates

nov 2009

dec 2009

march 2010

april 2010

june 2010-ss bday

nov 2010-i love tis hair style most

feb 2011- new spectacles

march 2011-before the hair cut

restart

2011-02-21T03:24:00.000-08:00

im here(TARC) for almost 2 years
it seems funny to me
as i saw my 1st post when i 1st time here
im official 20 years old now
as growing older
it wil be so much things to think, to worry

thing tat troubles me most recently
where should i go after my diploma?
work???
continue to advance diploma???
continue to degree???
7 months left for me to think abt that

stpm result will be released at 12pm later
i wish all my friends can pass with flying colors
n my result is coming out on tis week
i m wondering whether i can get the result i expected

if i fail my law, i fail with dignity

2010-11-02T21:00:00.000-07:00

last night, when i talked to turtle
we mentioned abt cheat in exam
i said i never cheat in exam
and he dont even believe it, wtf
i swear
i never ever cheat in exam since i came to TARC

today...
i had my law test
it was held at lecture hall
such a nice place for students to cheat
how can 1 lecturer monitors approximate 200 students?
if u was there
u can easily c how many of them are copying
when u have a glance over the hall

in my opinion
at the time u was cheating in exam
u was actually cheating urself too
tis isnt what u can do
ur parent will surely ashame on u
(tis is what kf said, xp)
i admit i did 'assist' some of my friends in exam
at such situation, how can i deny their request?

ermm, the law test was not hard
but i didnt memorize the name of the case
which costs 20/50 marks
i may not pass my law paper tis time
but if i fail my law, i fail with dignity

target

2010-10-17T01:11:00.000-07:00

mayb because of i dont hv a target
then i dont hv any motivation
last sem's result surprised me
i didnt expect for it
luck is always around me,xp
thus, i set a goal
so far, my cgpa is 3.3773
i m going to boost it to 3.5!

japanese class

2010-10-16T22:11:00.000-07:00

japanese class
we gt a new japanese tutor
n she is teaching us in chinese
for such a long time i didnt attend a class conversed in chinese
it recalls me a lot about my chinese class at secondary school
but the it's not that interesting when i attended the 1st class
i was asked by her to read a sentence
then i cant read it out smoothly
it's because i didnt even touch japanese after last sem final
n i forgot a few japanese characters
as a result, i was graded same level with chris n need to be tested by her
......
1 week later, the test began after the class
she spoke the hiragana n we are required to write it
lol, she spoke damn fast n i stopped her few times
when i forgot 1 character, then she said:
你们又没读啊？
你们再这样下去我就让你们自生自灭的
wtf, i gt no mood after she said like that
but i still continued till the end
i gt one wrong, it's the character i mentioned above, ふ
she talked to us while she was checking our answers
she said she sacrifices her own time for us
it's all for our good
she also said something abt her experience while she was studying
something abt because of not study the hiragana n katakana well
she is such a responsible tutor
i respect u, but i dont even knw ur name, xp

touching

2010-10-03T18:42:00.000-07:00

i told my mom i was sick last night
then she and dad came all the way to KL
to visit me
it is really quite touching
as i remember
this is the 1st time i got ill badly
since i study at TARC
fever, cough, cold and especially headache
(i cant even remember what i want to do)

she brought me a lot off stuffs
fruits, essence, MUNCHY'S OAT CRUNCH(my favorite biscuit)
especially different kinds of herbal tea
and ask me to consume it regularly

then we had our lunch at OCTOPUS in wangsa walk
varies type of food there
but i chose chicken ramen to eat
different types of sushi there
and the fried sushi, really attractive
but i cant eat the fried sushi, arhh
the lunch is paid by my brother, thx, hehe

my mom said my face is full of pimples
and asked me looked for a doctor
but i rejected it
(coz the doctor i saw last time didnt relly work and expensive)
okok la, i will sleep early and avoid those fried, hot food, seafood
i will come back home with a handsome face next time, lol

if i die young

2010-08-23T16:26:00.000-07:00

a stupid will never understand what genius thinking
vice versa
i dont mean that i m a genius
but i m definitely not the stupid one

i listen to a song entitled 'if i die young' recently'
it inspired me a lot
though the lyric of the song isnt that related to name, lol
i wont spend so much of time on games, drama, pool or facebook anymore
i was thinking
if i die young
i did nothing
except wasting major of time on dota, drama & pool
and i will surely repent for it

final is coming
and i m waiting for it
though i m not ready yet, xp

i m still a child

2010-07-29T00:43:00.000-07:00

i m tired

i miss home

i want come back to my mum & dad

"heng"

2010-07-20T22:46:00.000-07:00

cant control my emotion in these few days

will 'heng' easily

maybe because of the great stress

which is mostly comes from assignment

especially when i saw the 'conclusion' & 'recommendation'

when i looked at those JAPANESE,

then i will fell an irresistible impulse to say:

wtf u had done? can u be serious a bit?

it is counted in our final!!!

maybe u dont care, but i do

after that, i will be demotivated to continue it agn

honestly, i rather do it myself instead of correcting the errorssssss

dont judge me

2010-07-05T23:54:00.000-07:00

i will do it in my own way

u dont know me

dont judge me

need motivation badly...

reminder for ERIC OKW

2010-06-25T02:11:00.000-07:00

time is passing

seem i m not aware of it

it's week 6 of this semester

assignment and tests are killing me

but i m still escaping from my obligation as a student

commercial law is freaking boring

it's not hard to understand it

but how can i manage to memorize it?

that's the problem

gosh! the test is coming soon

well then, i will force myself spend some time in this subject daily

japanese language isnt funny for me anymore

indeed, it takes me a lot of time to remember those hiragana and katakana

and the vocabulariessssssssssssssss

futhermore, i need to adapt japanese's grammar

1 more subject that need to be revised regularly, sigh~~

english

i noticed that my poor english is getting poorer

i m uncertain whether i m using the right grammar

confusing about words that seem 'alike'

exp:

assess or access?

extinct or distinct?

restrain or retain?

and etc

always mix up with these words

expect to get A- for this subject

in order to fulfill it

i have to work hard to qualify myself for it

friends

i had indulged myself for a long period

hang out with my friends

dota

pool

bar

all these activities is banned by me for weeks^^

irritation

it irritates me when a person who is unqualified is showing off

especially the fxxker who is always intentionally raise his volume when he is teaching (or misleading maybe) someone

it irritates me when someone who is always talk about how to 'please' girl or what he 'did' with his girlfriend

u tell me all these things for what?

show off??? sorry, i m not interested in it at all

it merely reveals that u dont respect the 'privacy' between ur partner and u

it irritates me when i m restrained from doing something, but the one who restrained me didnt know what i actually want to do

it irritates me when i see someone who is always asking for help

instead of expecting assistance from others, can u try to use ur brain which is about to rust?

Thierry Henry

2010-06-20T21:10:00.000-07:00

u r the reason that i fall in love with football match
u used to be so perfect
the way u move the ball
ur exceptional pace
n definitely the way u shoot
that's why i like number 14,
it's ur shirt number^^

Wenger, his previous coach once said of his fellow Frenchman: "Thierry Henry could take ball in the middle of park and score a goal that no one else in the world could score".

unfortunately, Henry has not featured in the starting line-up for France at the current 2010 World Cup. France drew in their first game against Uruguay, and lost 2–0 in their second against Mexico, and now face the prospect of elimination. That's what Raymond Domenech did, after Henry sacrifice so much for France, he didnt even let Henry shows in field, and he kick Aneka from the team, and the suck team formation & team style that u set, u r the one who causes France lose!!!

i prefer the Henry in the Arsenal, u are totally perfect that time
Arsenal's all-time leading scorer with 226 goals in all competitions

i am addicted

2010-06-12T23:34:00.000-07:00

你是如此地平凡

又如此地特别

white color is really suitable for u...

abt her

2010-06-11T03:21:00.000-07:00

in my mind
she is a hardworking girl
i notice abt this long long time ago
she will always do the homework 1st
she will pay 100% attention in the class
that's she is different from the others

i can speak out freely to her
maybe she is one that i can trust
(i dont believe people easily)
I used to rely a lot on her
and i really need a friend like her

she had changed...
she dont sleep late anymore
good, it's good for her health
she seems is hiding many things in her heart
n that's the way she solves her problem
i just realized i m not that understand her
but i will try to know more abt her

obsession

2010-06-01T02:22:00.000-07:00

about my study

i m not that interested in Japanese as i thought

so, it seems tough for me

Commercial Law, damn it

it is the hardest subject for me

it is sucker than Biology and Physics

(i would always ignore these subject in secondary school)

i need to check at least 1 word for 2 sentences, wth!

it is legal language, as told by my lecturer

and for this subject,

i need to hafal, hafal and hafal!

about my housemates

they are really 'active'

always pool, dota and yum cha

if i continue to hang out with them

my study n my wallet will surely gg

about money

i almost bankrupt ad

but i wonder how i spent my money

i didnt buy anything (not include 2 shirts la)

i didnt buy my bag yet

my money seems fly away quickly since the college reopen

need to jimat sikit this month

i have set a target for myself

for my 1st 20 years

i had spent most of it on playing and studying

for the coming 20 years

i will spend it on working and build my own career

i gonna have my own cafes

i always think about the name recently, lol

i wish i can half-retire in the age of 40

let's see whether i can make this true

for now

the most important thing for me is push my grade higher

it will be only 1 and 4 months left for my diploma and my study, maybe

recent life and thinking

2010-05-26T02:43:00.000-07:00

room

i have my own room finally in Kl

though it is not large

but it is enough space for me to rest & relax

the new housemates are quite friendly

all people in our house are male

so, nothing to worry just like the house before

(sometimes, we don't even close the door when we piss)

we all will always have our dinner together

besides, we will play Lan game DOTA always

two weeks
only two weeks
everything isnt same anymore
it seems unfamiliar to me
haiz~~
i need to work hard to bring it back...

hair

i have changed my hair to right side

i even cut my side hair short

i think i will keep this hair style for about 4 months

then i will really cut it extremely short or change to curly style

College

1 and 1/2 years left for me, maybe

got to spend time on my study again as holidays ended

quite satisfy with my result

thanks for all those tips, hehe

at the same time, felt disappointed as FOM didnt get 'A'

maybe it was because my coursework mark too low

got to push my grade higher

i dont wish to graduate with the Merit Diploma

Japanese

i had my Japanese class for the 1st time today

our 'sensei' seems very pro

he said himself master Japanese & French

besides, he also good in Korean

and he also can speak the Malay, Chinese, Cantonese & English, of course

wow! u are really pro

he told us Japanese is very similar to Korean

and we can learn Koren very quick if we had learn Japanese, vice versa

that means i have to put effort in my Japanese

because i damn like Korean, lol

Langkawi trip

we didnt take much picture this time

we are enjoying ourself there

but not busy taking picture at there and post it to facebook, xp

hotel where we stayed

Eagle Square there, i like the sea view than the 'eagle', xp

view from my hotel room, damn nice

sunset

i like the shadow

Pulau Mengantung? forgot already, lol

last day in LANGKAWI

LANGKAWI, bye!

厌了

2010-04-25T06:41:00.000-07:00

在fb看到ex-classmate的照片

看到了校服...

我想我再也没机会穿了

还蛮怀念的...

不知不觉

在tarc已度过了一年

只需多一年半

就完成我的diploma了

after diploma

我想我不读了

我开始有点厌了

我想到外闯闯

现在的我学会放下了看开了

整个人也变得快乐自在

我放下看开

并不代表我不在乎

而是我明白了一些道理

有些事情你再努力

也不会成功

formula for success = effort+luck

without one of them, u cant succeed

人的快乐在乎学晓等候

命里不归于你你便毅然地放开手

越抱著只会越嬲知足一世你便富有

（lyric from 《如果有一天》）

Trust

2010-03-26T20:56:00.000-07:00

Sometimes

I don’t even know I believe in God or not

I don’t know who can I believe

But the only thing that I can sure is…

I believe in u and my family

There are too many hypocritical people out there

I don’t even know who should I trust

They are terrible and horrible

Their ignorance

Their fake smile

Their lie

Their trap

They can try to lie to u with their disgusting smile

And they manage not to blink their eyes when they are cheating

They just to achieve their goals regardless

Although I am not smart

But I m not as stupid as u think

I won’t fall into the trap u set!!!

I m fine

2010-03-18T08:30:00.000-07:00

Recently

I don’t dare to sleep again after I woke up

I sleep before 2am

I reduce time on playing dota

I don’t even open my ppstream for 1 week

I don’t open my facebook (because my modem is broken, xp)

I don’t complain even though it is not fair

I did something against my principle

I try to control my emotion in a moderate mode

I try to eat something that I won’t choose to eat before

I try not to absent my lecture class

I try to concentrate in the lecture class

I remind myself not to stop

I remind myself what to do and what must do

I feel tired

I feel happy

I m trying to make the 1% works…

I m fine

6 march 2010

2010-03-06T09:39:00.000-08:00

today is the last day

i promise...

i am always not the last one

but i am not the first for long long time

i m going to get it back

today is the 6 of march

i will never forget what happened today^^

^^

2010-03-01T10:55:00.000-08:00

today is the day that i first met u

sometimes, i dont look at u,

that doesnt mean i dont like u,

actually, i afraid i cant take off my sight

after i looked at u

新美人主义 by 陈奕迅

不要一脸惊奇　看的是你是你是你

我们屏神静气　为的是你是你是你

你的智美兼具　活现新的美人主义

多年来我们一直寻觅的是你

你不要怀疑　你的美丽　本来就是这样子

为什么你不学一次　对自己忠实就有美丽

脸上的美丽　美在一时

你却有种永恒的颜色

让世界用你的名字　给美丽重新定义

美得不可思议　没什么秘密

美得有意思　因为你是你自己

不做谁的影子　美丽以个性去展示

下一个传奇　现在有你在这里开始

其实..

2010-02-27T00:58:00.000-08:00

我沉默因为我在思考

我不说不代表我不懂

我不说其实是我不懂怎么说

我怕说了你会误会

我怕说了你又不回应

我怕说了你也不一定懂

我怕说了你会令我失望

说与不说都矛盾。。。

生命

可悲的是它不可重来

庆幸的是它不需重来

life

2010-02-22T22:30:00.000-08:00

人生...

总是有遗憾的...

suicide

2010-01-12T19:07:00.000-08:00

commit suicide cant solve the problem
but leaves the problem
rest in peace
my uncle

2.13am

2010-01-04T02:33:00.000-08:00

now is 2.13am
i still dun sleep yet
do nth now

open my fb
comment bullshit things there
no intention to sleep at all

final exam is drawing near lo
but i still same like tat
dun wan to put effort in my studies
always find excuses for myself
escaping frm studies
dun even touch any book yet
m i a lazy boy?
i dun deny it...
nvm la

i juz realized something recently
i disliked many ppl b4
dislike oni, not hate
dislike nt equal to hate la
dislike many of his/her behavior or action

recently
i juz found out
no one is perfect
everyone has his/her shortcoming
i shud try to accept it
juz like how the other ppl accept mine

i hv a fren tat i hate b4(is hate, nt dislike)
lately, i m close to him
mayb can reli build up relation
when we knw each other deeply
when we accept their shortcomings...

u can use
lazy
impatient
boring
lc(coz i wil damn quit n cool when i m not in mood)
to describe me la...
though i knw wat is my shortcomings
but i dun decide to fix it
coz i enjoy being like tat lo...

if u like me(not love me la)
pls tell me n i reli appreciate it
if u dislike or hate me
ur business la
i m nt live to make all ppl happy de
i live to make those i care happy
it's my life, xp

两个人不等于我们

2009-12-30T02:59:00.000-08:00

你想我吗? 会偶尔想我吗?
是这样吗? 飞扬的会落下
你爱我吗? 如果诚实回答
可是爱也不是解答

两个人不等于我们 by 王力宏

这首歌蛮旧了
可是我最近才注意到
这首歌不错
尤其是歌词部分...

2010

2009-12-28T23:49:00.000-08:00

it means so much to me
i left secondary sch for 1 year...
i wil be 19 years old...
my brother wil start his working life...

2010 is coming
y so fast de?
still left lot of things to do
still din change my attitude yet

2010 is coming
it means my final exam is coming too
omg, still blurring abt wat i m studying
especially the ITS
there is so much for me to memorize
cham lo...

whn i was small
i wished to grow up fast
whn i grew up
i wish to bc to small agn
nth to worry
no pressure
can be happy for whole day if receive a new toy
can speak frankly to everyone
no nid to think so much b4 i talk
there is so much things to worry
whn we grew up
studies
finance
wants
relations

farewell to 2009 n welcome to 2010
happy new year!!!

peace

2009-12-21T00:06:00.000-08:00

i m someone who is ordinary

i dun like din
especially the rock music
it is so irritating to me

i m someone who is quiet
i like peace n i enjoy it
especially when i feel tired or dizzy
i need peace most

but my roommate is suck
u can always hear songs frm my room
especially the japanese songs n rock eng songs
sometimes i wonder he knws wat is mean by tat songs or not
the worst is
he wil always sing along with the songs
n he wil oni turn off the songs when he sleeps
he wil never knw how suffer i m

another roommate
tis one quite gud
but he is a dota fan
always play dota
n tat wil lure me to play wif me

how can i concentrate
if i stay wif my roommate
i nid to move
i dun wan such a life anymore
i nid to do well in my final exam tis time...

error occured!!! in my life

2009-12-14T16:35:00.000-08:00

dun ever rely ur business on someone's hand

otherwise

u wil surely regret it one day

i can blame no one

exp myself

all i can do is remember the mistake i made

n i wont repeat it ever agn

everything is not go as wat i planned

my life is in a mess now

no more own space

haiz

i can think nth in my mind now

i juz wan to bc to my home

the place where i belong to

the warmest place for me

life goes on...

22 days

2009-12-09T03:40:00.000-08:00

there is something wrong with me recently

the more stress i face

the more i will relax myself

i reli bcame crazy ad

i m escaping frm reality

i dun wan to face the problems..

22 days later

i wil hv my own room

no disturbance frm my roommate anymore

no noise

no non-stop music anymore

no singing

no dirty

no games

no movie n drama

no disturbance anymore when i m sleeping!!!

i wish tat i can find back the feeling...

i like to hv my own room

my own space...

life goes on...

question mark

2009-12-03T00:55:00.000-08:00

i always wondering...

ppl who always ask foolish question

do they ever think b4 they ask?

ppl who always lie

when wil u tell the truth?

ppl dont put effort in their position

y they still in their position?

as they dont work hard in their position

exp: a student who is lazy in his studying

a worker who dont do his work well

ppl who cheated in the exam can still publish wat they did

without feeling shame or regret

do they still own their dignity or not?

ppl who always make noise

can they shut up n enjoy the peace?

ppl who like to show off

they want to get other ppl's attention

do they ever knw they r irridating?

ppl tat seem like me

wat r their target in their life?

sometimes, i find life is boring n meaningless

dun worry, i m nt going to commit suicide, haha

i reli nid to set a target for myself

life goes on...

FOA!!!

2009-12-01T01:41:00.000-08:00

FOA(fundaments of account)

u make me crazy!!!

the subject tat i most hate,

going to hv my FOA test at 10am,

still blur abt my FOA now(1.39am)

no intention to do it anymore,

the probability i wil fail is 99%, lol

i always feel sleepy when i c the FOA notes

mayb is my excuse for my laziness,

whatever

i dun like acc!!!

damn it

2009-11-23T09:53:00.000-08:00

played games n enjoyed my self recently

n thinking a lot of nonsense too

waste of my time

i m getting lazier

the worst thing is

i hv no intention to do everything

feeling tat i lost something...

dun even put effort in my studies yet

escaping frm FOA

the subject tat i most hate

but i nid to sit for the exam 2 weeks later

damn it...

lazy liar

2009-11-17T04:07:00.000-08:00

sometimes

v may lie

coz v hv to lie

if u lie

u better lie cleverly

coz i m nt as dumb

as wat u think...

ur lie is easily disclosed by me

mayb u were reli sick,

or u were pretending,

God knws tat.

but...

it is doesnt matter anymore,

i hv gave u up

u r incorrigible

wat wil u do or wat u did

is non of my business anymore

sometimes

i wil be damn lazy

n wish to be a irresponsible person

like u...

but i wont...

mayb i m nt the one tat should blame

coz i m not contribute tat much too

sometimes

i wil blame myself for laziness n incapability

will u?

forget it...

fren

2009-11-16T02:42:00.000-08:00

time passes and passes

ppl come and go

our new life had begun

you went your own way

i began my college life

we both may change a lot

r we still friends like before???

wondering...

we both may forget each other someday

friend

one sincere friend is enough for me

i don't need that fake friends

keep in touch...

thx

2009-11-10T23:31:00.000-08:00

i nid reli nid to say thx to u

u always inspire me

like wat u did b4

i m much lazier

compared to u

mis u suddenly

wish i can c u...

tired

2009-11-09T10:34:00.000-08:00

tired of seeing people like this:

ppl who always pretend they knw everything

(although they knw nth at all)

ppl who always show off themselves

(u can juz ignore them so they wont show off anymore)

ppl who always complain they r busy

(although they the one who make themselves busy)

ppl who always complain they r tired

(although they do nth or do meaningless things for whole day)

ppl who always lie or overstate

(i cant nail their lie although i knw it is a lie)

tired, but i nid to face it too

coz tis world is full of tis kind of disgusting ppl

mayb i m one of them too...

tired of wearing a mask in front of ppl,

nid to pretend u r hapi though u r nt hapi at all

nid to give a fake smile to ppl u dun like

nid to calm though u r angry

it is better to do ur own things by urself

u cant rely on other ppl

coz they cant be trusted

they may fool u agn n agn

n look down on u

all u hv to do is trust in urself

do everything well

n never ever let ppl gt chance to look down on u anymore...

i gt the feeling

2009-11-01T02:01:00.000-08:00

baby r u dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb???

frm nw onwards,

i wil ignore everything u did or u wil do,

coz u r dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb......

u wont affect me anymore,

it is wasting my time to think or analyse wat u did,

wat u did or u wil do is non of my business anymore!!!

i wont treat u as my fren anymore,

u mean nth to me!

nt in mood

2009-10-20T21:56:00.000-07:00

i m nt in mood recently

i juz wan to listen to me n be myself

i dun wan to be anything else

if u like me, thx

if u hate me, it is ok, i dun mind

tis is my mine, ok?

nt yours,

can u think b4 u do somemthing?

nt every apologize can get forgiveness

sometimes, it means nth!

can u dun say the stupid lie agn?

i m nt a 3 year old boy,

i m tired of hearing it,

am i the oni one who noticed?

dun force me to nail ur lie, pls!

i afraid i cant take it anymore

i dun wish to embarrass u

all i can do is keep myself away frm u

i hope i can still cope with tis

i m wondering wat else i can do...

introspecting...

2009-10-19T04:32:00.000-07:00

life is suck...

my result wil release in tis week...

worrying about my acc...

i hv prepared for the worst...

i juz dun wan to disappoint the ppl who r care about me...

but i may disappoint them agn...

i hate him...

but cant tell him...

how can i say tis to him???

moreover, i nid to pretend i m happy while i wif him...

i became a liar...

lie to him...

lie to her...

lie to myself too...

i hate myself now...

i knw escape cant solve the problem exist...

i knw wat i supposed to do...

i knw wat i should stop frm doing it agn...

but i dint do it...

of course i knw wat m i doing...

sometimes, i realise i should be grateful...

no financial problem...

no healthy problem...

no family problem...

there r many ppl harassed by these problems...

they hv nth to eat...

they hv no family...

the worst thing is, they hv disease...

yeah, i should be grateful...

life is suck...

but i still nid to continue it...

wat a nice album by EASON CHAN

2009-10-01T01:11:00.001-07:00

u should try to listen to tis album especially '心的距离' n '多少' by e神

DBU1 had fun

2009-09-17T23:34:00.000-07:00

on 15 sep 2007, something happened...
Power Rangers DBU1 hang out together~~
we planned a lot of things b4, but all gone,
the BBQ party almost success organised,
but it gone too,
asistant class rep's false,
thus, we decided to play bowling, next sing k and eat steambot.

bowling at Times Square...
i dun even strike for whole game(sad le),
n my fingernail was broken,
n i didnt have mood to play any more.
but ejie was more unlucky,
always masuk longkang, haha~~
shiny looked pro le,
she gt the highest point,
kah fu is also geng la, gt full mark, 100%,
haha~~we took a lot of photos at there.

sang k at green box...
yen yen sang at all the time,her voice...sweet,
yuet xin accompanied yen yen,
sang n talked wif her~~
kah fu kept silent like he was in library,
ronald sang loudly without mic,
but he chose to shut his mouth immediately when we gave him a mic,
mayb he n kah fu felt shy...
eerick was silent at first because he dont know chinese word,
when he began to sing,
i thought there was a superstar there,
patrick sang like a singer too,
(in fact, i overstate eerick n patrick's case, haha~~)
shiny finally opened her mouth and sang 'bleeding love',
what a nice voice~~
chris ate the junk food at most of the time,
sang 2 or 3 song oni,
mayb he was hugry,
me, sang a few song only, in fact, i rarely sing...

steambot at Talipon Restaurant...
i seem like an carnivore,
ate meat oni~~
n my stomach was 100% full.
we talked crap n nonsense,
all ppl were making fun of chris especially michelle,
he burned his hand,
pity him la,
n we celebated eerick n patrick's bday or wedding there,
wish them hapi togther 4ever la~~

ME exam

2009-09-10T21:37:00.000-07:00

2day is my MICROECONOMIC's test...

in fact, i din fully prepare...
i started my ME revision on about 3pm yesterday...
hmm...i gt 2 days to study it...
i din reli revise my ME, i juz read throught it...
i din reli understand all of it, n skipped a litte part...
n my last chap of ME, i din 'touch' it at all...

something made me distracted...
i talked to her agn...
i read my ME seriously after the conservation...
until 3am 2day...
n i planned to wake up at 6am to finish it...

nth goes as wat i planned...
i waked up at 7.30am...
n continued my revision after bathing...
until 1.30pm...(my exam started at 2pm)
i think i hv understanded a lot of thing of my ME ad, exp chap 6, i read through it oni...
once the exam started,
i read the essay question 1st,
fortunately, i knew how to do the three questions,
as usual, i wrote the short note for my essay question immediately,
next, i did the MCQ as fast as i can,
then i began to answer my essay question...(nid to answer 3 out of 4)

after i finished my 1st question, about 1hour15mins left,
then i felt sleepy, my 'writing speed' was slowed down,
i was doing my exam's question as i was doing my exercise,
hoooh, i finally did my 2nd question...
when i looked at the clock, it showed 3.40pm,
20 mins left???
wt'x' ...
i 'boost my writing speed' to do my last question in 20 mins...
hoooh, luckily i still can finish it on time...

conversation

2009-08-31T03:02:00.000-07:00

i chatted wif one gal tat i dun know for about 5 hours n 40 mins 2day, started frm 9pm to 2.40am, tat is reli unbelieveable. From talking nonsense to exam, then about make up, life, our blog, her ex bf n...... i can say everything to her, n she said many things about herself too. i knew her chinese's name, hometown, where she stays now n........ through chatting, i teased her n she did it so, i can guess she is an honest girl(mayb oni), she gave me her blog add tat she din gif anyone b4 n the most important thing is, she praised my blog, she said my blog is nice, haha, xp. Actually, i told her something tat i wont tell any ppl, mayb becoz she dun know me, n she wont tell anyone else gua. i felt free n relax when i chat wif her, i din even feel regret 4 wasting so much time to msn wif her, instead of preparation 4 my final exam. it is reli strange to chat wif someone who u dun know for so long time, but i felt great to chat wif her...

it is time to be serious

2009-08-17T07:03:00.000-07:00

在TARC呆了将近3个月了，在这段时间里，有不少的test和presentation，但还没真正的努力过，可以说是没一件事做到一百分，再过2个星期就是我的final exam了，希望这次我真的会尽力，不再沉迷于看戏、打game和其他无谓的事情上，得过且过。

上个周末都没什么温习到，今天读了大半天书，有点读书的feel，希望我能keep着这种feel...

18days left to my final exam...

i hope tat i can still remember the reason i come to TARC...

回家，真好

2009-08-02T23:38:00.000-07:00

差不多整一个月多没回家了，presentation, test ,presentation n test agn, 搞得我透不过气来，这次考完了mid term test过后，终算可以放松一下，真的是“一下”而已，因为final exam将在一个月后开始，gym的coursework2和coursework3又要来了，而我又得慎重的考虑下个sem到底要不要转去marketing。其实酱久没回家最大的原因是懒啦！一想到回去要用3小时左右，就打消回家的念头。

以前从不察觉家里的床是那么的舒服的，回去的两天，都从2am睡到12pm左右，然后就醒来吃东西（当然是妈妈准备的啦），以前常弹妈妈煮的东西不够咸、太油、没味道、没新鲜感之类的，在外头生活了大约三个月后，对外面的食物早已厌倦，这次回来，再尝尝妈妈煮的菜，真的比外面的食物的好吃、健康多了，以前的我真的身在福中不知福啊…

回家真好，不必愁衣洗了没、煲了水吗、等下要吃什么之类的零碎问题，因为有妈在，这些问题都不成问题啦，她办事，我放心，哈哈~~

明天就要回去kl了，真的有点不舍得~~

失望的一天

2009-07-22T21:25:00.000-07:00

今天HE (hubungan etnik) presentation，这是我第一次的formal presentation，可是...
present时忘了几个point，而且还停顿了一两次（可能是太容易受影响的关系），觉得自己表现真的很差劲，30分才拿23分(本来还expect自己可以拿25分的），都怪自己没prepare好...

早上的account test...
是应该会做可是又不够时间做...

haizz，失望~~

college's life T-T

2009-06-18T02:29:00.000-07:00

College's life is nt tat enjoyable as u guys think, i m no longer relax n enjoy my time at TARC anymore. In the beginning, i thought college's life is enjoyable n fun. My 1st n 2nd week at TARC is really quite relaxalbe n i din even feel stress or under pressure, but it did nt last long, my nightmare began on the 3rd week...

Assignment, assignment n assignment agn, omg! The test is oso coming soon, all these things r burden me, the deadline 4 my HUBUNGAN ETNIK coursework is drawing near, my group doesnt finish yet n we dun even prepare 4 our presentation, omg!

In addition, i m having sum problems to adapt myself with the method of lecturer or tutor teach, coz it is totally different with wat i had learned in secondary school, but i think i still can understand n catch wat they teach by now.

Nid to find info 4 my coursework now, sien...

1st day at TARC

2009-05-20T02:26:00.000-07:00

1st day

第一天超早醒的咯，都是红豆咯，闹钟调了六点半（他七点半要到学校，我两点的），响了很久都不肯醒，整只死猪酱，结果就是...吵醒我了咯，我醒了再睡会头痛的叻，就躺到八点左右，然后就prepare去kolej咯（陪肥猫去，顺便农id card)，肥猫真快准备好的，好了又一直在催我（间接的），他穿好衣服、袜子，拿好bag站在门口，还一直说：我绝对没有赶你的意思，慢慢来（重复了至少十次）。步行了大约四分钟，就到college了，一进去就找office咯，肥猫够笨的，竟然叫我带路（我的方向感超差的咯），带他绕了一个大圈，原来office就在大门左边，效率真快，花了大约十分钟就弄好了。之后我就去找turtle咯，他就住在大门正对面，走三十秒就到college了。在turtle家吹水然后跟建辉到hostel去...

两点多重回到college，到hall去attend MASS CALL，omg！酱多人在hall排队的！夸张到！早知就早点来咯，等了大约十五分钟，终于都到我了啦！想不到她说我的offer letter有点问题，要到另个special counter去，我心想：来也了，酱我不是要重新排队，好才，在special counter cop了印过后就可以进去hall了，还要穿一件他给的TARC t-shirt的，还蛮ok的。因为和turtle他们走散了，只好自己一个人坐咯，超显的咯，我又酱早醒，还差点睡着了，只有在黄家定致词时有认真听一下。好不容易等到mass call完了（还以为可以走的），竟然要分course集合！哇！我那科超多人的咯，大概三百多人，我们被带到school of business去，senior对我们讲了一些话后（太小声了，听不清楚他讲什么），终于可以走人了...

“返学咯”

2009-05-16T19:06:00.000-07:00

休息了近半年，终于都要开学了啦，心情...有一点点期待+担心，哈哈

今天我和阿姨、哥去看了我租那间房，SHIT！竟然正在装修我那间房，walao，“搞么鬼哦，”早不装修迟不装修，偏偏人家搬进来的时候装修？她（四十多岁的auntie）说今天一定弄得好哦，只好先把东西搬去另间房放着先咯...

本来打算住一两个月就走人的，因为...都是别提了，那位auntie竟然叫我们（我和阿cheong）签房约，还要是为期一年的，真的是“激死人”，Kim Sheng的姐姐都帮我们给了两个月的deposit给那位auntie了，“我真是无的选”，难道叫他姐临时找过另个人咩？只好心不甘情不愿的签了那份合约，“这次我真是来硬也了。”后来想了想，如果真的住到不ok的话，就搬咯，最多不是亏掉那四百多块，费事咯，勉强是没幸福的咯。

wah！阿cheong搬蛮多东西来的叻，夸张到，也好，可以跟他share来用，那我就不用搬那么多东西咯，hehe。

就剩下桌子和椅子还没买罢了，等下吃完饭打算出去买，卖完过后就应该搞定了吧，然后明天就真的搬过去住了，希望一切顺顺利利咯

厌了

2009-04-26T16:13:00.000-07:00

捱多四天，就不用做bar tender了，只是看在工钱的份上（工钱的确蛮高的，RM2000++）我才做三个月，不然的话早就不干了，宁愿呆在家里上网、看戏、打game，因为这份工实在是太太太......显了，每天都重复做回同一样东西，拿冰、装水、打酒（打酒的意思和倒酒相近）、倒可乐、洗杯、切水果（我最讨厌切水果了，不是因为水果难切，而是厨房实在是太熱了）。我工作的地方的环境蛮复杂+“窄”的，幸好我是出淤泥而不染，至今还没被“污染”到。还有，每天要面对自己不喜欢的人，就算内心有几不爽那个人，都不能表露出来，这才是最难受的事。

四天...

打劫

2009-04-23T15:49:00.000-07:00

最近发生太多事，实在太忙了，所以很久很久都没update我的blog了。

那天是4月3日，大概五点左右，我和朋友放工以后，便到附近一间印度店喝茶。还记得我那天是吃maggi goreng和喝teh ice，就在我要喝完那杯teh ice时（本来打算喝完就走了），一位戴头盔的印度人走近我们。

那时我已经觉得有点不对劲了，就在这时候，他伸出了一把和西瓜刀差不多一样长的刀，指向我的大腿，命令我们拿出所有东西。那时我的脑袋顿时一片空白，反应不过来，他立刻把刀放在我的肩膀上（还蛮靠近我的颈部，我想我需要很长的一段时间才忘得了那一刻的记忆），我们也只好把钱包、手机交出来，他拿了以后，还叫我们把bag给他（过分叻，bag都要抢），一到手后，他喝令店员和其他顾客不可报警（大约有三位店员、两名顾客），接着马上跑向一辆motor，接着就骑着那辆motor走了。那些人果然听话，没报警，还有一名顾客走过来问我们刚才发生了什么事，他说还以为那位是我们的朋友，跟我们开玩笑哦（真白痴，拿着刀开玩笑咩）。

还好我的朋友的朋友载我回家，不然真的不知怎么办（钱包和手机都被抢了，真心痛，钱包里有两百多块，我的k550i...）。

拇指

2009-03-23T13:41:00.000-07:00

昨天由我负责切水果，由于我想在7.00之前完成（通常在7.30-8.00切完+排完，我的记录是在6.45），于是就以我最快的速度切。

就在我切着最后一粒青苹果时，不小心切到拇指，流血了，我赶紧拿tissue按着伤口（还以为只是小伤）。

过了几秒，继续切，发觉血还在流，仔细看一看伤口，omg！伤口原来这么深啊，切到肉里去了。这次，不敢马虎了，先洗一洗伤口，再拿tissue按着，血还是继续流，于是马上拿冰块按着伤口，血终于止了，松了一口气，抹一抹伤口然后贴胶布。

继续切最后一粒青苹果，拇指还有点痛，花了很一段时间才切完（那粒苹果）。不知是不是用力过度，血又流了，不切了，这时正好阿健进来帮忙，就交给他了咯。

累了

2009-03-17T22:52:00.000-07:00

没时间了，要振作了，明天还得去TARC报名，
看了些business administration和marketing的资料，
选定了，就business adminintration吧。
可是，一想到考试，有点恐惧感...
还是放不下...
真的很累了（mentally and physically），要好好休息。

别问了

2009-03-17T18:13:00.000-07:00

别问了，我不想再回答了，我需要一点时间冷静...

SPM

2009-03-16T15:25:00.000-07:00

那一刻，忽然觉得自己很失败，考得很差，3个A2，真没料到...
心情低落，无法接受，我想要一个人静一静。